![]() I come home to complete distress - her patient sister has done all the housework, her room is a mess, and within twenty four hours she melts down. When I travel she can "hold it together" at job but does nothing at home to pull her weight. ![]() She is very reliant on me in spite of my efforts to build her self-sufficiency. Her meltdowns that she's had all her life are fewer and far between and way more intense. Hi there H MB, I feel like your post here just read my mind. I need to reach out to others who either understand her or me. She doesn't like me to be away because she gets lonely. I feel like she hates me much of the time, and I feel like a prisoner in my own house. Trying to get her to see a Psychiatric place that specializes in Autism.waiting for them to approve her. The bad days are really bad and it is amazing I live through the tough moments, especially the ones in public like the two in stores today. She has good friends and can hold a job, just can't drive yet. She lashes out when she feels I am not respecting her. I actually called a suicide hotline myself yesterday and am desperately working to understand her better so I don't push her buttons. Now that she is an adult, it is more difficult for me to "take" these attacks, and keep my own self respect. She is 21 and has had these outbursts/meltdowns her whole life. My Daughter is the one with the meltdowns, although some are just angry outbursts. I feel like the most horrible thing to ever live, and I'm including viruses in this, I just so awful and I'm still recovering. I blew up and shouted (I never shout) the word "F*** YOU!" to my roommate for like a minute straight and then took 20 Ativan and two trazadone. I may be seen as a tool but I just like being nice.Īnyways. Normally I'm really quiet and skiddish (I'm five seven in a world of six footers) and I speak slowly and at reasonable volume. He openingly devalued my opinion (after many little scuffs before hand) and I just blew it. When he works on audio stuff he goes all like "I went to school for this." When in fact I went to school for art. My caregiver tried to contain me but the roommate insisted that I wasn't the person to talk to concerning Photoshop, Illustrator, Indesign, and such. I learned later in life (like three years ago) I was diagnosed with autism and I just blew up at my roommate. Oh, and Aspies, get a sense of humor, and avoid NT's who refuse to recognize let alone empathize (ironic) with the way we are. ![]() I may never get to that finish line, but neither does any human, not for long anyway, before death claims us. I have a good therapist and a great wife and I'm working all the time to redirect traffic in my brain to "get it right". Now, 6 years later, though far from the finish line, at least I'm in the race. I was on numerous anti-depressants, so much that I was developing pseudo-Parkinsons in my left hand (I quit those too), suicidal, angry, sick, exhausted from lack of sleep, PTSD and chronic depression, overweight. I now know why I have had such a hard time in life, and this is good, because I can now address the challenge of trying to work around the part of my brain that's abnormal, and stop hurting the ones I love. When I quit smoking and drinking, my mind cleared up and I asked questions about myself and figured out, based on similarity to other peoples symptoms, that I have Aspergers (I have taken every test available, I score high on all of them for Aspergers). I didn't know I was until around 6 years ago. I hope this answer was not too late and that it helps someone. Just a woman in love with a man who happens to be autistic. Ask me any questions you may have and I will speak of my experiences. He provides me the best of company and I hope to be with him until we leave this world. We have come along way.I hope you people out there do not give up!! He is an amazing and highly intelligent man. Former alcoholic, we do not drink except for a couple of ciders here and there. He also smokes cannabis and is not on any meds. Everyone is different but this is how I handle them. All I can say is if you can do your best to avoid a meltdown then do it.Once they start sometimes it feels impossible to stop that moment. I do it in hopes he doesn't selfharm but there was a relapse.he cuts. My partner can be suicidal at times because of depression so i do have a really hard time leaving him alone. Do not over text and blow up their phone though. If you need to walk away then exercise that right. Yes, sometimes the ONLY thing to do is let them walk off. This has lead to physical altercations that could have been avoided but wasn't because I wanted to be "in control". I will admit the hardest thing for me is to let him run off. I am 23 and I have severe anxiety but have been able to cope very well now.
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